I am what you say

I'm so fucking sad.
Not emo sad. Like actually heart-wrenching, vomiting, self destructive sad. I try to fake it as to not worry the masses. I want to be the rock. But I'm crying myself to sleep and throwing up in the morning from soul crushing frustration and sadness. No one knows because I see no one and no one sees me.
Life isn't all about me but Jesus fucking Christ! I get hit by a car, lose months worth of memory and I'm met with friction, sadness, betrayal and abandonment.
"Remember That?"
Go with him! He's better than me anyway.
Pick a fight with me! I can take it and always have.
Kill yourself with drugs! I don't even have those feelings anymore.
Leave me!
Use me!
Hate me! I am NOT fucking important! Stop patronizing me by saying I am.
I'm a fucking Voodoo doll for when you are pissed at others or need a shoulder.
Just hate me! Leave me alone!
Stop breaking my fucking heart! I don't deserve it...I'm pretty sure.
I'm fucking dying! My confidence and self worth have been used up.
I'm a ghost! Just ignore me.
I AM empty! You said it.
There IS something missing from me.
I am wretched! I am terrible! I have nothing to offer but pain.
I am wrong!
I am GREY, fucking GREY!
I am not crazy!
I am NOT sick!
My Honesty offends! Good! Fucking children.
I am ugly! Inside and out.
I am Drugs!
I am Alcohol!
I am poison!
I am broken!
I am Evil! Its always calculated and thought out. Wrap your mind around that.
I am a long con! and I am my own mark.
I fucking HATE me!

People say everything happens for a reason. It would be nice if the things happening were good.
Well here is what I get out of it. Thanks for using me while you needed me! I appreciate the hell out of it. Look me up when you need me again. I'll probably still be a sucker.
Treat me however you see fit. I've never thought ill of you.

What have I learned?

Love isn't real and neither am I
Goodbye my friends, goodbye.

(Happy Belated Birthday, Blog. Not sure we'll meet again. Onward to something better)

Hive Mind Consciousness #4

Long duck platter seed rejuvenated my spirit particles. Virgins leak brake fluid from their tear ducts. Vvrroooommm BITCH! Drive Faster pussy cat juices yeast inflicted pain liquor. Warts destroy everything on earth. Velcro midgets defy Piggly-Wiggly shoppers daily. Fuzzy dicks squirt in her phalanges and teeth spontaneously destroying babies. BALLS! Sphincter tape inside my rectum sticks to the termites poop, which clogs pipes. Squirters in my mouth drive me crazy horny beastiality with whales. Sphincters Attack sphincters on Sundays no more prehistoric mind. Shatner killed Buddha, Spock ate my ears piece by piece. Eternal proctology gloved emotion of pleasure death butt hole. Craptastic fragilistic spastastic gallbladders inflamed with rage-aholic dreams that are wet. Needle-Dick in my box! Dick in my box y'all! So I qweef fruit loops all night. The North

Hive Mind Consciousness #3

Horses have to eat people with ranch splooge nuggets so that japs eyes stay open for Hindus. Joe the Plumber is an astronaut and He's homosexual. But Nugz McAverageguy Won't Fuck pineapples. Why? Just Because. Vaginas bite! Well Vampires suck on Bananas. Christmas sex disco Party. FAIL! At the zoo is yogurt covered monkeys, they have sprinkles and cream cheese lizards. Africa Bambata! Give me genocide now and later candies filled with fetuses. Suicide boys kill kaizen. Dreams are plays; magical vignettes. Fake fairy tales made with hymen. Unicorn? What Unicorn? That Unicorn! That's a balderdash, as in sprinting MegaTron! Activate my hopes of becoming a transsexual, done! Now turn on the Music off! Monster Ballads are the Gayest saddles of Donkeys in Timedom, Huzzah!! BDSM is enjoyable to Jesus and his scrotum is elaphentitesededed. Tongue my earlobes violently till they bleed. Dance on Broadway like a whore Bukake'ed with tapioca and vodka flavored Jello Shots. Sorority boys vomit on propaganda and terror and general virtue. King James II wrote the Communist prediction document in his sleep while dictating the queen. My olfactory is sensing the shit of Kamodo dragons and beautiful nymphs. Fucking Tina Fey was great. She's A Camel toe ninja Bitch Pirate! Radiohmygod! So, You lick Taint? Who doesn't? Jesus tittyfucking Catholic priest that's awesome! Please dirtyfy your face plate with shit and frogs. Cupcakes look like Fluffy upwards biscuits! Retards and Androids have sex violently with snails. Sarah Palin, fuck that. mmmmm minty hemmroids on McCain. Penis peanuts are words used to delineate Bambi fish. Eat colostomy bags of syphilis goobers please. Vomit tastes of elderberries with a twist of snozberry radish and WhiteBOYYEEEEEE!

Hive Mind Consciousness #2

Marshmellow goo substantiates the wonderment of Care Bear's love muscles. Spewing forthright the essence of Rainbow gobstoppers and Cherry enemas tainted with dingle-berries. Why now are we masticating the flesh of robots when obviously they're too leathery and full of fetuses. How much caulk vibrates when the batteries explode in your uvula? Destroy love puppies with Grenades made with mayonnaise that's warm and plentiful and deadly. Barbeque demons Pissing contest, who will embark westward cow tipping into the vaginal dreams of cream cheese. Mandy does it all within her anus hairs. Space monkey in the Mississippi. Crack smoking raw hide without nasal drip medicine. Let us reflect instinctively on the principles of poop and philosophy and porn. Greatly deniable divine Medusa mistress thinks pumpkins contain the children, That's stupid. I have ringworm. It burns my elbows like gonorrhea and smells rotten ginger face. Wasabi is Delicious when slathered over a pile of blow, SNORT THAT! Drugs of Consciousness, Asians reawakening, Birds contemplating. Git-R-Done

Hive Mind Consciousness #1

Buttons For Zuchinni Flame-Broiled Tacos Share bad urethral puss and Scab badly. The Meat inside is putrescent with seaweed to mask the Odor. Love thyself publicly and fondle others succulently. Qweef on your consciousness but not begrudgingly and forcefully on your inner child. The purpose of girls is strictly to Have respect for the anus goblin and The Snatch Tycoon. Peanut Butter Slip n' Slide; What elephant incest has succumb to the tyranny Juices of malfeasance? Creamy pockets of Brickhouse Employees that's who. Fingerbang your slutty Company Meetings until midgets come in slam dancing. November chills hands and feet, Yay Snow, balls and hot-coco fill my Ear Holes so zombies' Screams penetrate my left brain. This rorschach appears inside The Flying Spaghetti Monster's Superego; A Rabid libido Is Loose on Broadway: The Musical Retard Missed the Baseball reference; He Would. Enter the cunnilingus to fight The clit of DOOM. Marvin Gaye my George Straight. Take me by force Slut crumb butter ontop of my asparagus appendage. OH SNAP! Take That, you uncouth Yeti! Zip your mouth penis?

You Can't Stop the Sexin'

Rick James - Cold Blooded
Snoop Dogg - Sexual Eruption
Prince - Pussy Control
Scissor Sisters - Filthy Gorgeous
Marvin Gaye - Lets Get it on
Chromeo - Tenderoni
Al Green - Lets Stay Together
Barry White - Love Making Music
Isley Bros - Forever Mackin'
ODB - Put it in your mouth
Lords of Acid - ABCs of Kinky Sex
Jimmy Buffet - Get drunk and Screw
Wayne Marshall - G Spot
Smokey Robinson - I Second that Emotion
Prince - Sexy Mother Fucker
112 - Peaches and Cream
Tom Jones - She's a Lady
Styx - Lady
Bel Biv Devoe - Poison
Peaches - Fuck the Pain Away
Usher - Seduction
Savage Garden - I Want You
Salt n' Pepa - Push it
Teddy Pendergrass - Turn off the Lights
Stevie Wonder - Isn't she Lovely
Rick James - Give it to me Baby
Romeo Void - Never Say Never
Stereo MCs - Connected
Poe - Hey Pretty
Outkast and Norah Jones - Baby Take off your cool
Nick Cave - Babe, you turn me on
Filthy Children - Butter
Ludacris - What's your Fantasy
Pepper - Give it up
Sublime - Caress Me Down
Tricky - Aftermath
Atmosphere - Don't Ever Fucking Question That
Dane Cook -- The Nothing Fight
Fun Lovin Criminals - Love Unlimited
Dave Chappelle - Progress in a Relationship
Basement Jaxx - Romeo
Queen - Killer Queen
AC/DC - You Shook me all Night Long
Beastie Boys - Girls
Beatles - Can't Buy Me Love
Beck - Girl
Ben Harper - Sexual Healing
Billie Holiday - Comes Loves
Bjork - Big Time Sensuality
Bob Marley - Is This Love
Digital Underground - Humpty Dance
Handsome Boy Modeling School - Greatest Mistake
Jay Z- 99 Problems
Jimi Hendrix - Foxy Lady
Joe Cocker - You are so Beautiful
Johnny Cash - Ring of Fire
Juelz Santana - There it Go
Justin Timberlake - My Love
Muse - Stockholm Syndrome
Nelly Furtado _ Promiscuous Girl
Nine Inch Nails - Closer
Nirvana - Rape Me
Outkast - Elevators
A Perfect Circle - The Nurse Who Loved Me
Pink Floyd - Wish you were here
Postal Service - The District Sleeps Alone Tonight
Queens of the Stone Age - No One Knows
Juvenile - Back that ass up
Ice Cube - Put your Ass into it
Ray Charles - Unchain my Heart
En Vogue - My Lovin (You're Never Gonna Get it)
Salt n' Pepa - Let's Talk About Sex
Red Hot Chili Peppers - Suck my Kiss
Al Green - I'm Still in Love with you
Alicia Keys - Fallin'
The Temptations - My Girl
Magic Sam - My Love is your Love
Mystikal - Shake ya Ass
Kanye West - Gold Digger
Billy Paul - Let's make a baby
Cameo - why have I lost you
Morris Day and the Time - Jungle Love
Greenskeepers - Lotion
Mountain Goats - No Children
Rick James - Super Freak
Lovage - Stroker Ace
Europe - The Final Countdown

Jelly Bracelets and Leg Warmers

Survivor - Eye of the Tiger
Foreigner - Jukebox Hero
The Buggles - Video Killed the Radio Stars
Bananarama - Cruel Summer
Bananarama - Venus
Joe Esposito - You're the Best Around
Devo - Whip it
Kenny Loggins - Highway to the danger zone
Queen - Another one Bites the Dust
The Vapors - Turning Japanese
Gary Numan - Cars
Rick Springfield - Jessie's Girl
Loverboy - Workin' For the Weekend
Harold Faltermeyer - Axel F
Herbie Hancock - Rockit
The Bengals - Walk like an Egyptian
Van Halen - Jump
Cindy Lauper - She Bop
Ray Parker Jr - Ghostbusters Theme
Madonna - Like A Virgin
Clash - Rock the Kasbah
J. Geils Band - Freeze Frame
Journey - Don't Stop Believin'
Duran Duran - Hungry Like the Wolf
Michael Jackson - Beat it
David Bowie - Dance Magic Dance
Twisted Sister - We're Not gonna take it
The Scorpions - Rock you Like a Hurricane
Tears for Fears - Shout
Queen and David Bowie - Under Pressure
Wang Chung - Everybody have fun tonight
Men Without Hats - Safety Dance
George Thorogood - Born to be Wild
Culture Club - Karma Chameleon
Kajagoogoo - Too Shy
Billy Idol - Dancing with Myself
ZZ Top - Sharp Dressed Man
Billy Joel - Uptown Girl
Beastie Boys - She's Crafty
Genesis - I can't Dance
Dead or Alive - You Spin me
Orchestral Manoeuvres in the Dark - If you leave
Kenny Loggins - Footloose
Aerosmith - Dude (looks like a Lady)
Huey Lewis and the News - Hip to be Square
Dio - Rainbow in the Dark
REO Speedwagon - I just died in your arms tonight
Rush - Limelight
Iron Maiden - Run To the Hills
Metallica - Master of Puppets
Queensryche - Empire
Styx - Mr Roboto
Bruce Springstein _ Born in the USA
Blondie - Call Me
Eddy Grant - Electric Ave
The Fabulous Thunderbirds - Tuff Enuff
Joy Division - Love will tear us Apart
Bonnie Tyler - Total Eclipse of the Heart
The Cure - Why Can't I be you
REM - Its the End of the World
Men at Work - Down Under
TOTO - Africa
Warrent - Heaven
Skid Row - 18 and Life
Peter Gabriel - Sledge Hammer
Michael Sembello - She a Maniac
Souixe and the Banshees - Happy House
Prince - Kiss
Adam Ant - Prince Charming
Steve Vai - Little Green Men
Cory Hart - I wear my Sunglasses at Night
Hall and Oates - Maneater
Kim Wilde - Kids in America
Billy Ocean - Caribbean Queen
Georgia Satellites - Keep your hands to yourself
Robert Palmer - Addicted to Love
Katrina and the Waves - Walking on Sunshine
Simple Minds - Don't you forget about me
Talking Heads - Burning Down the House
The Pointer Sisters - I'm So Excited
Naked Eyes - Always Something there to remind me
Eurythmics - Sweet Dreams
The Police - Roxanne
The Fixx - One thing leads to another
The Escape Club - Wild Wild West
Tone Loc - Funky Cold Medina
MC Hammer - 2 ligit 2 Quit
Marky Mark and the Funky Bunch - Good Vibrations
Run DMC - My Adidas
AC/DC - Back in Black
Guns N' Roses - Paradise City
Big Country - In a big Country
Samantha Fox - Naughty Girls Need Love Too
Thomas Dolby - She blinded me With Science
Oingo Boingo - Weird Science
Michael Jackson - Smooth Criminal
Sex Pistols - Anarchy in the UK
The Clash - Should I stay or Should I Go
Violent Femmes - Gone Daddy Gone
Rolling Stones - Start me Up
Bobby McFerrin - Don't Worry Be Happy
Bob Marley - Redemption Song
Pink Floyd - Learning to Fly
Fleetwood Mac - Little Lies
Bon Jovi - Wanted Dead or Alive
Whitesnake - Here I Go Again
Rick Astley - Never Gonna Give You up